self enigma

I’d rather have the thought of you
To hold against my heart,
My spirit to be taught of you
With west winds blowing,
Than all the warm caresses
Of another love’s bestowing,
Or all the glories of the world
In which you had no part.

I’d rather have the theme of you
To thread my nights and days,
I’d rather have the dream of you
With faint stars glowing,
I’d rather have the want of you,
The rich, elusive taunt of you
Forever and forever and forever unconfessed
Than claim the alien comfort
Of any other’s breast.

O lover! O my lover,
That this should come to me!
I’d rather have the hope of you,
Ah, Love, I’d rather grope for you
Within the great abyss
Than claim another’s kiss-
Alone I’d rather go my way
Throughout eternity.

 
Angela Morgan

Time does not bring relief

Time does not bring relief; you all have lied
Who told me time would ease me of my pain!
I miss him in the weeping of the rain;
I want him at the shrinking of the tide;
The old snows melt from every mountain-side,
And last year’s leaves are smoke in every lane;
But last year’s bitter loving must remain
Heaped on my heart, and my old thoughts abide.
There are a hundred places where I fear
To go - so with his memory they brim.
And entering with relief some quiet place
Where never fell his foot or shone his face
I say, ‘There is no memory of him here!’
And so stand stricken, so remembering him.

Edna St Vincent Millay (1892 -1950)

ODE TO A LOVED ONE

by: Sappho

Blest as the immortal gods is he,

The youth who fondly sits by thee,

And hears and sees thee, all the while,

Softly speaks and sweetly smile.

 

‘Twas this deprived my soul of rest,

And raised such tumults in my breast;

For, while I gazed, in transport tossed,

My breath was gone, my voice was lost;

 

My bosom glowed; the subtle flame

Ran quick through all my vital frame;

O’er my dim eyes a darkness hung;

My ears with hollow murmurs rung;

 

In dewy damps my limbs were chilled;

My blood with gentle horrors thrilled:

My feeble pulse forgot to play;

I fainted, sunk, and died away.

Sonnet CXVI

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
     Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
     Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
     That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
     Whose worth’s unknown, although his height be taken.
Love’s not Time’s fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
     Within his bending sickle’s compass come:
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
     But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
     I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

"my head is battling with my heart, my logic has been torn apart"

"let me know if i’m doing this right, let me know if my grip’s too tight, let me know if i can stay all of my life…,let me know if dreams can come true, let me know if this one’s yours too ’cause i see it and i feel it right here…,and i feel you right here…"

"mapapansin kaya sa dami ng ginagawa?"

You Got It All
The Jets

I, I was a game he would play
He brought the clouds to my day
Then like a ray of light
You came my way one night
Just one look and I knew
You would make everything clear
Make all the clouds disappear
Don’t you know, don’t you know

You got it all over him
You got me over him
Honey it’s true
There’s just you
You must have been heaven sent
Hearing me call you went
Out on a limb
And you’re all that he’s not
Just look what I got
Cause you got it all
Over him

No, don’t let him worry you so
Once I met you I let go
Oh you can surely see
You’re so much more to me
Just one look and I knew
You would make everything clear
Make all the clouds disappear
You’re better than all the rest
Who do I love the best
Don’t you know, don’t you know

You got it all over him
You got me over him
Honey it’s true
There’s just you
You must have been heaven sent
Hearing me call you went
Out on a limb
And you’re all that he’s not
Just look what I got
Cause you got it all
All over him
(You got it all over him, You got me over him)
Honey it’s true there’s just you
You must have been heaven sent
Hearing me call you went
Out on a limb
And you’re all that he’s not
Just look what I got
Cause you got it all
All over him

dami na ginagawa lagi sa school. it’s a good thing nga na walang class ngayon eh para i could cope naman dun sa mga stuff na dapat namin gawin. first week of classes pa lang i was shocked na sa mga requirement samin. parang kakameet pa lang namin dun sa prof, may research work na agad na due 2meetings after that. gulat ako. second day nga of classes we were at the lib na eh. sipag na daw namin agad.hehe pero now nakakaya pa naman. di ko din lam paano ko nagagawa pero nakaka-comply naman ako sa mga schoolwork na binibigay samn.

life’s great pa rin naman kahit tambak schoolwork. saya pa rin. bakit? secret ko na yun.hehe

dami pa rin gagawin. may hw pa sa accounting. wheuw!!

Lintik na pag-ibig
parang kidlat
puso kong tahimik na naghihintay
bigla mong ginulat

‘Di ko man lang napansin ang iyong pagdating
daig mo pa ang isang bagyong namuo sa malayo
ihip ng hangin biglang nag-iba
sinundan pa ng kulog at kidlat
sa biglang buhos ng iyo sa akin
ako’y napakanta

Di ko man maamin
Ikaw ay mahalaga sa akin
Di ko man maisip
Sa pagtulog ikaw ang panaginip
Malabo man ang aking pag-iisip
Sana’y pakinggan mo ang sigaw nitong damdamin

Ako’y alipin mo kahit hindi batid
Aaminin ko minsan ako’y manhid
Sana ay iyong naririnig
Sayong yakap ako’y nasasabik

Ayoko sa iba
Sayo ako ay hindi magsasawa
Ano man ang iyong sabihin
Umasa ka ito ay diringgin
Madalas man na parang aso’t pusa
Giliw sa piling mo ako ay masaya

Pilit mang abutin ang mga tala
Basta’t sa akin wag kang mawawala

Ako’y alipin mo kahit hindi batid
Aaminin ko minsan ako’y manhid
Sana ay iyong naririnig
Sayong yakap ako’y nasasabik
Pagkat ikaw lang ang nais makatabi
Malamig man o mainit ang gabi
Nais ko sana iparating na ikaw lamang
Ang siyang aking iibigin

You and me
We used to be together
Every day together always

I really feel
I’m losing my best friend
I can’t believe
This could be the end

It looks as though you’re letting go
And if it’s real,
Well I don’t want to know

Don’t speak
I know just what you’re saying
So please stop explaining
Don’t tell me ’cause it hurts
Don’t speak
I know what you’re thinking
I don’t need your reasons
Don’t tell me ’cause it hurts

Our memories
They can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening

As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

It’s all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are…
You and me
I can see us dying … are we?